Love isn't just an emotion or a noun. It's a verb.

#Hal Kahwin 2.0

Yesterday we had a conversation thru phone. I mean saya dan encik tunanglah. Macam-macam yang kitorang bincangkan. Dan memang tak sah kalau conversation kami tak de drama dan airmata. Hmm,,, what to do lah kan.

So berbalik pada conversation kami semalam, we talk alot about duit hantaran, kad kahwin, baju and bla bla bla. Banyak benda yang kami still confuse and not clear. In fact, kami dua-dua busy. Tau lah kan nak hujung-hujung tahun nie. So, based on perbualan semalam, I can conclude that BANYAK GILA mende yang kita dua belum settlekan sedangkan wedding kita tinggal 4 bulan je lagi.. hukhuk. Siapa tak cuak kan?

So inilah benda-benda yang kita dua belum settlekan:

Duit Hantaran
- I rasa Encik Tunag saya macam confuse sikit pasal  pembahagian duit hantaran. He thought that duit hantaran tu kena bagi masa akad nikah nanti. Bukan ker duit hantaran tu ialah duit belanja kawin yang orang lelaki bagi kat pihak perempuan untuk uruskan kenduri kendara? I mean mestilah kena bagi sebelum kan? Tak kira lah separuh atau penuh. Hmmm... yang nie pun problem jugak. May be sebab pihak kami pun tak state kan bila nak bagi hantaran masa bincang hari tu. Tak pe lah yang penting semalam dah cakap...

Kad Kahwin
- Buat masa nie, belah perempuan memang tak de masalah nak buat kad since kita dah tetapkan tarikh dan Insya Allah tempat pun dah ada. Cuma belah lelaki masih belum tetapkan tarikh. So yang ini pun still pending either nak buat sekali atau asing-asing.

Kursus Kahwin dan Borang Kebenaran Nikah
-Yang ini pun satu hal lagi. Kursus kawen pun kita belum pergi since dua-dua pun busy manjang. Kalau Johor rasa takde masalah sangat bab borang kebenaran tu since semua pun thru online saja. Setel. I punya pulak kena tunggu pihak lelaki dulu baru boleyh proceed. Yada yada...

Attire
- On the way. 21hb nie baru nak jumpa designer and discuss. Rasa macam nak on je since dah tak de masa.

Hantaran
-pfffffffttttt.... 0/7. I punya satu mende pun tak beli dan tak fikir lagi. Zhafif mungkin dah beli satu.

Pelamin
- Yang ini pun kalau kak Zura Stazurin tak call-call jugak untuk set appointment I cari je vendor lain. Tapi bajet still letak 2.5K. Takmau lebih-lebih.

Videographer
-Pending. Tak tau lagi nak atau tak... Sob sob

Begitulah ye kawan-kawan... Nak tawen lg 4 bulan. Satu hapa pun tak jalan lagi. Banyaknya banyaknya....

123

days to wedding...

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah.

Sayang kerana Allah

I am a firm believer that some day I will find, meet and marry someone that truly loves me kerana Allah. I was so young at that moment but the thoughts just came and becoming the principles and guidelines that I hold until today. Believe me I did not understand that until few months ago. To me, love is just a feeling. I don't choose who I love. The feeling just comes and grows.

My previous failed relationship have taught me that I was very weak. To some point, always letting my emotions overrule my senses at that time. When the relationship doesn't work out, it becomes wreck and feel so betrayed. Feeling of hatred and regret. Regret of the things you have done wrong and regret for not doing more.

However, the principles towards finding the right guy makes more sense to me now. It just feels so good, so right and so smooth. When you love someone kerana Allah, there is a sincerity and respect in a relationship before marriage. You won't do anything that would jeopardise the health of relationship. Because you fear of Allah and Allah only. 

As for the guy, if he loves you kerana Allah, he will respect you in return. Wait until he has your hands in marriage before take your heart and body from your family.  He will promise to protect you and even pray to Allah that you're protected and will not stop praying even after marriage. The love is uncondition; either good and bad because he knows, you and him are belongs to the Creators. Wallahualam.

-_-

So many negative thoughts come and cross through my head.
O Allah, please guide me along this way.

September Update

Alhamdullilah. In fact of all the busyness; work, studies and wedding stuff, I managed to settle few of them. The progression so far is below 5%. However, I'll try to settle it one by one. Insya Allah. 

 September Update:

Make-up

• Done booking with MUA(s) & paid the deposit. I choose different MUA(s) for solemnization and reception as I want to try and experience different outcomes. Hopefully, I made the right choice this time. My engagement makeup was like a nightmare for me.

Photographer

• It was my choice. Yes, indeed. (hehe). He let me win this time as I really wanted this photographer even the price quoted a bit pricey. 

 So, these are the things that I have INITIATED and IN PROGRESS:

- nikah and reception's attire

- theme colours (indecisive)

- venue (x confirm lg)

- catering 

?? (is that all?)

Now, the things I've not started yet:

- pelamin and decorations (what theme? what colour?)

- hand bouquets

- videographer

- door gifts

- hantarans

- pengapit

- emcee/ kompang/ 

- kad

- guest lists

- bedroom decorations

- etc etc etc

Haish... peninglah.